-Im coming Your way.

It is very unlikely for me to be acting this way.  I am, I am..

-Very few knows me.  But majority knows of me.  I am, -I am, not what others will say.  I am not special, I am not like the rest, I am not similair, I am no different, I am -me.  I am, I am -Sia.

Over the past few months, I have been showered with love and blessings from every corner.  I am, I feel I was, the happiest girl ever.  I am, what I feel, the most successful I have ever been...  I have achieved what I thought I will never have.  I have done things, not most early twenty-years young will have done nor achieve.  I am, proud of the things I have, and things I do not have.  I am, I feel, I was, the happiest girl ever.

Over the past few days, I have been showered with blessings.  Blessings to remind me, that all of the above do not matter.  Because what really matters is that I am here.  That this is the moment.  The moment in which life still goes on -with or without the glorious things I have had. 

It has been difficult for me to understand such things.  I have been filled with so much anger, so much sadness, sorrow -oh how poetic it seems.  But my frustrations of 'how can this be' still grows and lingers in the back of my mind.  I cannot fathom enough of 'how can this be,' 'what have I done to deserve this?,'..  But when truthfully, this is just to show me the brighter side of life itself.  Although the glass seems to be thicker than before, I am going to pound on this glass until I am free of myself.  Free of this frustration.  Free of being this -person that I am, that I am..

I cannot dwell on the past, -all the hardworkings of my work.  I cannot keep going on that I have disciplined myself to get to where I once was.  I cannot keep going on that I did not grow up like the rest.  I cannot keep going that I did not have what others have.  I cannot keep going on that because of these that I did not have, I have what I have today. 

Truthfully, I am blinded by the joy of the past week and a half.  A shadow has cast its way over me and beyond.

I know I should feel bless.  I should be thankful.  I should not look at any of "this" the way I am.  I am, dwelling in the past of a week and a half ago.  I am, waiting for the storm to break free beyond these eyes.  I am waiting, to cry my heart out that I am hurt so much.  Pain, strikes through each and everyday.  -Reminding me that I am the way I am, because of a week and a half ago.  I am, loosing myself -crazy, unorganized, unable to do my regular routine, unable to think, lingering -lingering over a week and a half ago. 

It was just yesterday ago, that I was showered with love and blessings.  But today, I am showered with more love and blessings than ever.




Break free from this maddness.  Shine Your light to this overcasting shadow.  -Im coming your way...





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