You;

Although there are no better ways to explain this, but I have to break it to you.. Telling you this does not make me a better person. Nor is it going to make me feel better in any sense at all.  I just wish from the bottom of my heart, that you will continue to do what is right in your life.  There is no worries to mine, because I know what it is that I want, and what I am to do..  I use to worry for the things you do, I use to try to carry what you can not.

From the very beginning, I once told myself, that  I use to care.  I never wanted my selfish needs to overcome anything at all.  But I am only to realize the real you, that you are.  I can not believe..

You litterally bathe yourself in the needs and wants of other people.  You,.... -You tear me apart, and make me into a person whom I never knew I can become.  'This Person' SPEAKING, is not me...  -This is who you created me to be....

With who I once was, I will leave you at it.  -And I will drop it, because that is what "I" will do.  Take it easy...

Note to Self;

6:33p.m.
I hate it when I feel like this.  Its just a reminder Alex, of the unfinished business that is needed to be done.
Just remember, that the choices you make today, are for the betterment of tomorrow. 
Life does not always go as plan, but just remember that life always have different routes for you to take, and to change.

There are many people in this world, that will come and go, but you yourself will always remain the same -to yourself.  Although at times, you may feel like you have become a failure, fear not, because this is when you are about to conquer.  There is never such a thing as 'you cant'.  You yourself is your sole driver.  Be accountable for your own actions Alex, and trust me, you will be fine.

Always remember, that yesterday was the past, today is its own, and tomorrow, has trouble of its own.  Never worry for things that you should not worry about.  But rather put what you know first before you start falling behind.  And if you do, its okay, because the world does not end yet.  And when you feel weak and weary, remember who you are and that will push you even further.  Look beyond the choices that you make, and then you will see light at the end of the tunnel.

In all, just remember, people come and people go... -So its okay to let go sometimes, especially when the choice has already been made.

Look-up, smile, someone loves you.

Love, Sia*




7:23p.m.
Have you ever wanted anything so much in this whole wide world, that all you can do is litterally just sit there and do no more.. 

MJ; The Way You Make Me Feel.

I must be trip'n, -but that's my Lover Boy..

-The way You make me feel. Damn... You ain't know noth'n yet...
Duce.

Money talk;

Seeing those who strive for it, saddens me.  It brings grief with a sense of depression -stressing over the idea that You will never reach the an inch of happiness nor success...

He is conceited and understands nothing.  He has an unhealthy interest in controversies and quarrels about words that result in envy, stife, malicious talk, evil suspicions, and constant friction between men of corrupt mind, who have been robbed of the truth and who think that godliness is a means to financial gain.

But godliness with contentment is great gain.  For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.  But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.  People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into ruin and destruction.  For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil.  Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.
1 Timothy 6:4-10

Who am I to lecture those whom strive for the love of money.  Not I, but I will have my say in my interest of "Money".  It is the obvious, that "Money" is never a means of interest to myself.  But, it is a means in which pleases the world of the things it may bring or do.  It is a source in which 'People' gives it the authority to do such things..  It is the power of "Money" itself..

I can not stress enough of how Life is not all about the luxury of the world, or what power over money one has..  It is nothing, compared to anything at all.  It has a means of slaving oneself over and over again.. 

There's no way of sugar-coating this; It's obvious I don't like money...  I hate it 'Obviously' with a passion.  I do 'not' want to be acquainted with anyone, who is strongly attach with the idea of Money.  I see this, as a weakness of a person.  Someone who falls short of themselves -for the love of money.  Yes, it is something one must have in order to survive.  But you gotta give yourself more credit than youre giving money itself. 

-And it goes on..