There are many things in my life, that I wish I could have done, and things I wish I never commited. Nonetheless, I am greatful for where I am in life today.
Let me share with you a secret of mine, I am an old soul, trapped in a twenty-one years young body. I do not, or like to seek the life of entertainment. I rather sit at home with my old lady watching the dusts in the air through the windows. I, I am not the ideal youngster..
With that, I can not stress the idea of 'Life' alone. Lately, I have been thrown with many challenges, and witness many challenges of the world.
-All I am going to say is; simply enjoy the moment while it lasts.. Life's too short. Love one another. There's no time for arguments, no time for negativity. Live it up, enjoy.
As always, -said and done; Live, love laugh..
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Begining of Summer '11
Now that summer is here;
I am on a mission, to empty my bucket list. -And trust me, I will get accomplish...
-There are many things left undone. Many things, that I am going to finish from the unfinish. The business, is no longer business, but life itself...
Let's see you to it. Meet you at the finish line..
I am on a mission, to empty my bucket list. -And trust me, I will get accomplish...
-There are many things left undone. Many things, that I am going to finish from the unfinish. The business, is no longer business, but life itself...
Let's see you to it. Meet you at the finish line..
Monday, May 16, 2011
May16,2011
I think I have finally hit Rock Bottom. I need a better reason for Being.
Tell me, that everything is not going to be the way you think it ought to be.
Please say honestly, You wont give up on me. And I shall believe.
Tell me, that everything is not going to be the way you think it ought to be.
Please say honestly, You wont give up on me. And I shall believe.
I have found mine. =)
I have been up to nothing much these past few days. I am finally looking at life as nothing more than life itself..
In saying this, I am not saying that "Life" means "nothing" to me, but rather that it is being itself. It's not hell, it's not going to kill me, nor do anything to me. -That is what I am saying.
Anyways, I want to share great news with you. I'm starting to have an eye opener of who and what I really want to be out of this Life. I do not know exactly where I am going to begin, or how I am going to come about it. -But what I do know, is that I am going to make it happen regardless of what or anything that stands in my way. Because I know that at the end, this is what I am bound to be, what I am made to be.
The person that I am. I know, that this is what I am made to be..
It is in me, and yes it took me time to realize, but I am glad that I have found myself. Yes, I have debated and challenged myself with this. At the end, I have come to realize, that yes -yes this is the task for me. And with this one, there will be many more. I can hear their voices.. And when I am accomplish, there is a place for me in their hearts. And in peace, I will lay my trust in the Lord of their faith and heart..
With this, I challenge you, to challenge yourself in the seeking of your will.
In saying this, I am not saying that "Life" means "nothing" to me, but rather that it is being itself. It's not hell, it's not going to kill me, nor do anything to me. -That is what I am saying.
Anyways, I want to share great news with you. I'm starting to have an eye opener of who and what I really want to be out of this Life. I do not know exactly where I am going to begin, or how I am going to come about it. -But what I do know, is that I am going to make it happen regardless of what or anything that stands in my way. Because I know that at the end, this is what I am bound to be, what I am made to be.
The person that I am. I know, that this is what I am made to be..
It is in me, and yes it took me time to realize, but I am glad that I have found myself. Yes, I have debated and challenged myself with this. At the end, I have come to realize, that yes -yes this is the task for me. And with this one, there will be many more. I can hear their voices.. And when I am accomplish, there is a place for me in their hearts. And in peace, I will lay my trust in the Lord of their faith and heart..
With this, I challenge you, to challenge yourself in the seeking of your will.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
RE-cap
For the past few weeks, I have been in major denial of Depression and Stress. Now, I think I have hit rock-bottom, and realizing that yes, maybe I am depress and stress. This is so uncool...
I have been worrying too much about school, life, relationships, and trying to figure everything else out. Unfortantely, this is what it has come down to. I am depressed. I am stressed.
As much as I hate to admit that I am not the strong woman I am, I'm not. And I suppose, that is my greatest weakness. Just like a super hero's weakness is Love. I am starting to believe that I do not have 'Love'. Or better yet, I do, that I learned to 'Love' myself first. -Sighs*
I am not saying that I grew to this stage out of the fact that I am in a personal relationship and such. But lately, I have been drawn to; want to feel commited too, or the target to be pursue. -But it is not. I am feeling weary of chasing and pursuing others before me.. -And I think I am going to stop here. I am starting to not understand the whole point of being in a relationship -"once again". I hate it. I hate it so much.. Why? Because I am on the verge and ready to be commited, and not have to worry about anything else, or hearing the little voice inside my head asking me question if "HE" is the one? I am sick and tired of it. So sick and tired.
When I was little, I told myself that my significant other and I were to be together, for the betterment of eachother. -But unfortantely, this relationship is gragging me down with it. Because I am now seeing that it's not just not working out, but it also takes the right time. But, this relationship of mine, is coming to an expiration date, and I am tired of the sourness its becoming. It needs sweetner, but it's only getting artificial sweetner. I need 110% effort into it. Not just an artificial act of effort.
There, you have it.
I have been worrying too much about school, life, relationships, and trying to figure everything else out. Unfortantely, this is what it has come down to. I am depressed. I am stressed.
As much as I hate to admit that I am not the strong woman I am, I'm not. And I suppose, that is my greatest weakness. Just like a super hero's weakness is Love. I am starting to believe that I do not have 'Love'. Or better yet, I do, that I learned to 'Love' myself first. -Sighs*
I am not saying that I grew to this stage out of the fact that I am in a personal relationship and such. But lately, I have been drawn to; want to feel commited too, or the target to be pursue. -But it is not. I am feeling weary of chasing and pursuing others before me.. -And I think I am going to stop here. I am starting to not understand the whole point of being in a relationship -"once again". I hate it. I hate it so much.. Why? Because I am on the verge and ready to be commited, and not have to worry about anything else, or hearing the little voice inside my head asking me question if "HE" is the one? I am sick and tired of it. So sick and tired.
When I was little, I told myself that my significant other and I were to be together, for the betterment of eachother. -But unfortantely, this relationship is gragging me down with it. Because I am now seeing that it's not just not working out, but it also takes the right time. But, this relationship of mine, is coming to an expiration date, and I am tired of the sourness its becoming. It needs sweetner, but it's only getting artificial sweetner. I need 110% effort into it. Not just an artificial act of effort.
There, you have it.
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