End of August 2011

I've grown old of being angry at you.  It only leaves me being upset at myself..  It was selfish of me too; and to not hold pity against you.  I rather hold myself apart and punish you for the wrongs I felt you deserve.  But at the end of it all, You never deserved it.  And I never should have, got what happened to myself..  Neither of us, deserved the worst of anything at all.


I have learned to forgiving you.  I had given you, more guilt that you deserved.  I intended from the bottom of my heart, to hurt you, -until you finally realize, how much you have hurted me.  But what have been the outcome of this all?  Absolutely nothing...


Now, I have lost the chance to really experience something truly great.  You, have lost something truly great.  We, -both have lost something truly great. 


It's only (truly) selfish, if I ask for one more day.  But I know, that 'One day,' will never be seen around the corner.  -Or ever at all... 


The past was the past, it was never a part of me, or who I am.  Forgive the past, and you could have loved me more than you wished you could.  'THAT,' was the only thing that held you back.  I never was the type to hold the past against anyone including you.. -Which was probably why I never understood what you have done, or what kept you that long. 


Now, I look towards today, tomorrow, I will never get that chance again.  I will never get that chance again.. How selfish of me -how selfish of me..


-Forgive me...

Alone&Death

Dealing with the death of my biological Father is becoming so harsh to be facing it on my own.... 'Until next weekend Alex, you have only yourself to keep your head up. Hang it in there..'

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Aug15th

There are honestly, many things in my life that I will never seem to understand. 
-And this feeling is one from the honest truth, that I don't think I will ever understand.  But I do hope and wish with all my heart, that those with a heavy heart, will strip away from their self-fishness, pride, greed and PRIDE alone..

I am at the point where I can not face it anymore.  Because it really is tugging me with it.  My only chance was put into waste because of your Pride and sense of Stubborness.  Yes, I am upset, and yes, I still cry -for your mistake in not letting your child experience something that could have been wonderful.  And now, it is all gone.  Should I have blame another or none at all, the point is, I lost it all...

-And now, there is nothing left for me to call, or to claim, that I once had a chance to feel happiness underneath the grave.

RIP.

Thats for Sure.

Theres one thing I know for sure;
Im litterally sick and tired of makeup.  Girls, suck it up -and dont trip when I say Im sick of 'em.
Pedi's and Meni's, I appreciate the grooming idea, but that's something I can definitely live without.

4 Years and Counting.

Inseperable. Indiscribale. In Love, if thats what this feeling is; then I love being in Love with You.. -SiaYg*

Its amost here; damn right Im nervous and Excited at the same time. =)


Nonetheless;
We have Eachother..


  S i a A l e x i s Y a n g
         .  .  H  e  a  r  t  s  .  .  .  .
                                 X i o n g V a n g

me; Smile&Laugh ;pp

* When I heard this song, boy it made me laugh and smile! Anyway! ENJOY YO!!

Martin Solveig et Dragonette - Hello

I could stick around and get along with you
Hello oh-oh-oh-oh
It doesn't really mean that I'm into you
Hello oh-oh-oh-oh

You're alright but I'm here darling to enjoy the party
Don't get too excited cause that's all you'll get from me

Hey

Yeah I think you're cute but really you should know
I just came to say hello
Hello
Hello
Hello oh oh oh oh!

I'm not the kinda girl who'd get messed up with you
Hello ho-ho-ho-ho
I'ma let you try to convince me too
Hello oh oh oh oh

It's alright I'm getting dizzy just enjoy the party
It's OK with me if you don't have that much to say
Hey

Kinda like this game but there's something you should know
I just came to say
Hello

Hey

I could stick around and get along with you
Hello oh oh oh oh
It doesn't really mean that I'm into you
Hello oh oh oh oh